Thinking Leads to Sadness.

I feel so unwanted lately. Like everyone I care for and love would be better off without me. You know that feeling where the whole world is against you and you're fighting back. I'm a peoplsl pleaser its how I have always been. So when I feel like ive dissapointed someone, especially my girlflriend, I feel like I have failed as a person. I'm fat. Not curvy, not obese, fat and chunky. I'm plain. There's nothing special about me. I feel like my girllfriend deserves someone better. Its so hard to sit here and poor my heart out while I cry. Critique me or say I want attention, I just don't know what to do. I love her, I'm in love with her completely. But what if one day she doesn't wanna be with me. What if one day she realizes she deserves someone better looking. Ugh.